Today, in a few short hours, I will be leaving home for the weekend. I am going alone – no husband, no kids. I made it through the birthdays of the week and the band concert without pulling out any hair. But now, I am getting ready to pack up the car and head on down the road.
Here is my conundrum: Strict diet vs. delicious Yarn School food. My strict diet is now 100% gluten free because I have found that it really does affect my Fibromyalgia and how I feel. I eat specific foods at specific times. The feeding schedule at YS is not really what anyone would call normal. Coffee is turned on by whomever is up first – usually around 6 am and is gone by 8:30. And there is no more. There is no formal breakfast – waffle batter and a waffle iron, yogurt in the fridge, bread for toast, maybe some whole fruit. Then lunch. Lunch may happen around 3. And it is usually a carb and fat laden choice of food – homemade mac-n-cheese, BLT sandwiches, etc. Delicious? Yes, but not timely or within the parameters of what I eat. And dinner? Fuggetaboutit! 9 or 10 pm if you’re lucky. BUT — the conversation and camaraderie is part of the experience.
So – am I strong enough to sit with the group of campers and watch them eat? Do I take a small plate and find food that isn’t TOO bad for me? Do I skip meals altogether and eat my own food at my own timing? Every party I have ever had at my house has been centered around the food. In fact, we almost never even leave the kitchen. In my poor little brain it seems that food and fun have been linked to one another. Part of my dieting is to sever that link and let food be food and fun be fun and ensure that I don’t have to have food in order to have a party be a party. I think this is the most difficult transition I am making in this diet. For Easter, we went to brunch and I ate too much. Next weekend, we will be heading to a family baptism and a friend’s graduation. Guaranteed eating events. It is so difficult. Even if I make ‘good eating choices’, I will probably be eating more than I normally would. And there will be desserts. I can’t be alone in this struggle. Obviously America has an obesity problem that I am trying to stop being a part of. My plan is to stay the course, eat on my schedule, and avoid the food that I should not eat. Thank goodness yogurt is on my list of things to eat, because this is the best homemade yogurt ever.
Anyone have any thoughts or advice on this? Have you been there? Let me know. I want to know there are others on the same life raft as me.
Today’s drawing is tanglepatterns.com String 26: http://tanglepatterns.com/2012/11/tanglepatterns-string-026.html